Memory

How the brain processes memories is fascinating.  Since negative ones take more processing they may be more memorable.  Yet to lighten up turning to positive memories can be the key to happiness.  Getting rid of the overload or baggage changes the mind to mechanisms that forget the negative.  The brain is much more responsive to training than was historically known.

Royal

is in the least suspected places.  In places wide and far, not easily found?  This worldly world sets it at a certain bar.  Not even close...

Warm weather

I remember summer coming in Durango, as spring would wind down like the school year.  It was a gateway to the most possible prosperity!

Kentucky Derby

Is it May again? 

I miss him

The rain reminds me of laughing with him, yet it may be time for a change.

Where I stayed in Denver

There used to be some very interesting monthly hotels in the inexpensive category.  While I was writing and over time I lived in a few of them.  One in particular was very homey.  I walked in and there was a bright yellow blanket covering the bed.  It seemed like the sun inside and therefore very Native American. 

a small town

Snowy Summer-ish

The look with a blue sky, only in Spring does that happen.  It does the senses good or the mind breaking out of the usual feels the natural of change, the drug of breaking through.  Kind of a lesson in the alternative realness for the conscious seeker.

Easter weekend

Started off early with some housekeeping tasks literally, then studied, then did my music thing.  Easter is renewal and the time for re: goal setting after the fasting of Lent.  What has one learned?  By that act?

Rainy day

Woke up early.  Everything all clean and new!  It's just right, a light rain.

Engineers...

Advancing!

Villanova is going to the Final Four, such heart...San Antonio and the winding river.

Basketball

I watched Kentucky and rooted for them against Kansas State.  Now I am following the winner against Loyola.  Tonight is the big game!  The Elite Eight!

Charles

I am working more with my memory of him.  Hmm that is strange to write.  Do I know him really.  There is the memory writing him beginning 20 years ago.  But do I know him in the same way that he knows Aya?  What a quantum question for the ages.  Am I struggling the same way--- makes me want to find him, so I write some more!  Do we know more than we realize we know?  The next question, is there more to reality?  Is real only the minimum that we cloak ourselves with yet time tells the true design, even in time when we have the awareness!  The final question, how will we accomplish and gather the awareness?  The mountain to climb, the yarn to knit, the speech to elocute, the everything, welcome to the new new real world!

March Madness

Excellent Kentucky win tonight!

Revelations

In the bible written by John, Revelations is probably the most famous chapter.  I always liked the descriptions of fiery chariots and war torn pictorials even though the warnings were quite realistic.  They were prophesies to enable descendants to change their ways.  Were they saying they had failed and leaving the best information they had to ensueing generations, for better results?  Do we pay attention in that way?  I believe there is much to try and understand but most of all to have faith.

Jessie

from San Francisco where his sister lived he said.  I like the downtown and almost rented a room there once.  It was a nice place on the third floor, a writer's paradise I thought.  It was a lot of money for me at the time but the city was the main barrier,  it was so huge it made me dizzy.  I had the same feeling in Seattle.  Later I found out that near too much water is an ecosystem difficult for me.  I like a lot of land around me, stretches of it as far as one can imagine it seems.  But I do imagine writing there, it's part of changing the past.  Or it is the writer's prerogative!  Either way San Francisco can figure strong in my mind and heart.

He Proposed

It was in Tucson the winter and I often went to the hot tub.  It was during or inside an hallucination that he did so.  The awareness I had during the whole affair lent itself to the knowledge that it wasn't real!  I refused to give him an answer...

Rocky Point

In Spanish it is Puerto Penasco.  If you have been there you can say either and still feel right at home.  It's in Mexico yet very American.  It was the July Fourth weekend when it was so crowded with throngs of people.  Yet we went a few miles out of town, off the grid and it was pure silence and stars.

Robert flew home...

He was happy.  John was going to be fine.  He could run both offices from Durango so Robert was gleeful and guilty.  He was so happy to be going to the town, taking it easy.  He called Emma and she was at school, the college.  She said she just got out of her psychology class and would go to pick him up at the airport.  Esther would stay at the apartment with John and the priest was doing blessings daily.  The Galleria shopping center was nearby and Esther loved shopping in the city.  She was back to a large metropolis so her inner self smiled and danced the rumba.  John was happy just relaxing for a whole month.  He knew this was the treatment and his doctor had used prevention strategy for his wellness quotient.  He wouldn't do any financial transactions for awhile so he watched the news and called Robert with his senses, for involvement in the market.

Flower Show

I have a new print, an original sunflower!  Call for more information...

A.M.

What would we do without the morning? Just to drink coffee or do some yoga, stretching to the sun salute.  Even if you are commuting, the drive spreads before one.  You can watch the news for anything interesting that happened overnite.  What else?

The Wind

I felt toppled, holding onto a poll to fight the air swirling around me.  The sun is out and as we get closer to Spring I feel the warmth of the change.  The transition from a winter spent in more darkness to light inspired by more time in day.  One thing the wind does is push one to evaluate progress.  The symbol of wind could be a weather interest in achieving goals.  Entrepreneurs talk about the self talk to succeed or pushing oneself to strike out for an adventure.  Like a parent, the wind pushes for individuality and courageous action.  The wind we love.  

Haunted Hotel

One winter in San Diego, it turned cold only like a seaboard coast can.  It was as freezing as a day in Chicago and I was walking through the mall intending to go to the movies.  The mannequins eyes started following me as I window shopped.  It was a queer feeling that I couldn't shake.  I went to my hotel room instead of the movies and tried to quell my fear.  Nothing would subside and the look of the other hotel guests began to be quizzically the same.  I was being followed but by what?

The moon

then he kissed me while the brightness with pink floral shone, the romancing of a long-term relationship.

Continuing to adjust!

He was doing well, Robert thought about himself.  He had more time for relaxing out of the city, the stress was coming off in layers.  Soon he thought he may never leave Durango but John needed him so he flew to Houston.  He found his friend layed up with bed rest only.  He started waiting on him like as though he was his girlfriend.  They both laughed incessantly at the thought.

My leg healing

Sometimes I wake in the night and read online about others who have knee injuries.  There is a certain understanding different when you can't bend the knee so walk at all.  There is a certain suffering that others know about, can talk about very well.  I listen!

He awoke

to find Esther making coffee.  What a weekend away from stress of the job.  It had been a whirlwind since opening the office in Houston.  He felt he was home after going to another world.  Now he felt himself.  Being around Emma also had that effect.  She was so comforting in a chaotic world and he felt chaotic all right.  Esther said she understood.  She had followed Emma around for years.  He went for his run along the river and thought he was hooked also.

Robert felt great

in his Durango home on Crestview.  He doubled up on his couch with Netflix.  His mind wandered to when he was fourteen and in middle school.  He would have loved to have grown up in Durango.  Tomorrow he would go for a run then meet John at the Durango Diner.  Houston was a million miles away...

South Korea

The Winter Olympics has begun and I am looking forward to the ice skating.  Emma had her boys with her, Robert was in town and he and John were competing for her attention.  She made them banana bread and hot chocolate, with whipped cream.  They wanted to know about her return to college and the classes she was teaching.  Emma said that she was working with some new material in bioinformatics in genome sequencing.  It was her research that challenged her sharp mind and the college class was rewarding.  Her students were from all over the world.  Emma got a call just as the banana bread came out of the oven.

South Korea

It has begun the winter Olympics.  I'm looking forward to the ice skating.  Emma sat down with her boys. Robert was in town so he and John were competing over her attention.  She made them banana bread and hot chocolate with whipped cream.  They wanted to know all about her college return and the classes she was teaching at Fort Lewis.  She said that she had some new material, genome mining and engineering.

San Diego

At one time the train figured prominately in the downtown.  I once ate at the restaurant caboose.  Everyone figured strong somehow, all connected that morning.  No one seemed to be in a private mood including me.  So we conversed, heartily.  There was the couple on their honeymoon, the computer scientist from up north and the old man and woman married ages they said.  I went back to my monthly rented room somehow happier than I had been for months.

Championship games

Raising the bar....

Salad bar

I took my daughter through the line of the biggest salad bar ever, picking out specific entrees of the speciality.  Can't say enough about the choices, all important and the top of the heap or helping.

Cruise Ship

Like a submarine dive in a tsunami, the ship recovered into a transformation of the size and shape, more eclectic and sharper.  The type of movement that is faster, more mobile so that the heights are reached.  The ship is all changed!

Kansas

Stayed there for a week during the Fourth 2 years ago.  I took long walks to Wal-Mart eating potato salad to celebrate the holiday.  But most impressive were the big wide spaces in the sky.  They are famous for the blue landscapes up high, I felt.  Time moves slower, a luxurious clock, keeping pace.

50,000 dollar dress

Remembering my dream and Grace on the fly...  Her dress took her to a new place.  So did mine.

Navy van

When we were happy driving to Brush Colorado, my husband and I listened to the ultra modern music.  That van fit us and we were way different from each other.  The music loud,  the fun was impenetrable.  Once we went to my sister's wedding and left soon after to go down the road, down the road, blue van.

September 15

My anniversary of having hurt myself is tomorrow, four months ago.  I was rushing and running and slipped in a very freak accident mode.  I am over the worst now even though I still have bad days.  Over the bell curve of very dangerous outcomes, I am grateful and lucky to be as good as I am at this part of recovery.  Thanks to my physical therapy team and doctor!

Football

Love it like gravitational waves...

2 months and one day

I left the rehab/care center the time ago...  I feel better most ways.  Healing has been a process.  I remember every victory and going backwards.  Time moves slow!

A Journalist

Emma spent most of her time writing.  She wanted to publish in a medical journal.  Using her MD this way fit her.  She had her coffee eyeing her article, she felt the history when she was a med student and very young.  She met her husband there as well.  Smiling to herself she went back to the article.

Cabin in the woods

I would often take walks, 7500 feet high looking at heaven, the mountains a sermon for sure.

1987

I moved into my house in the mountains, Conifer, Colorado.  The drive was a bear at that time but it was a gorgeous house.  To commute was a new idea but the drive was so beautiful and peaceful. I knew it by heart, every curve.

Summer by the pool

What a memory in January.   The view!  Very lofty very unstable, the water reflecting all kinds of stories.  The shape of water took on the profane.

Downtown Denver

Used to live in housing there.  I had the most beautiful bed with a crimson bed spread and floors all shiny.  I had the most incredulous experiences there.  Now I think of living there close to 16th street mall and the now marijuana dispensaries.  It looks like a New Mexico landscape painting.

San Bernadillo

I woke up one morning after a party night.  I came from Las Vegas and stopped near Los Angeles or so I thought.  I stayed in a hotel and the pillows were feather, propped up.  Had breakfast and watched morning shows.  Took the train to the train station downtown promoting my screenplay.

Car parked

Near me watching me, I noticed it started when the game was on and proceeded from there and then.  What is it?

The classroom

To teach,  Emma had a degree in psychology.  No one knew that she was also an MD from a Russian University that she received when she was 25, her specialty in neurobiology.

My footsies

are soft with room...

Blue

The color for January representing the cold and the frost as well as symbolic sky the wideness of space.

Another dream

I was protecting an object like a hat or purse full of cash.  That then went to a woman who bought a 50,000 dollar dress and I was impressed with the design and fabric, the luxury of the buying, selling and matters concerning the dress that expensive.

January

The cool air meets the beginning nuance, of starting again or over.

Skiing

They had a great time on the slopes then went to the lodge for schnapps and hot chocolate to celebrate.  On the drive home they both felt a nice kind of tired.  Emma exclaimed, "John your the best".  She was referring to him as a skier and a driver!

Predictions for 2018

Make an appointment.

Record temperatures

and my broken toes are starting to have normal feeling.  It is wonderful that I may still recover completely.  So far the probabilities are still out on that.